Mid-market, Saturday, I found out that my grandma is in the hospital. This was quite a shock and I took the rest of the day off. However, prior to this information I had a great morning. Even with the overwhelming task of set-up and the stress of attempting to calculate correct change (during which I froze up and had to ask someone for help with ‘easy’ subtraction quite a few times, until I finally, after years of confusion, ‘got’ the count-back method… not a great day for my self esteem, as I also misspelled the word ‘original’ on our info chalkboard…) I had a good time. I surprisingly enjoyed meeting our CSA members and took pride in selling the salad I had just cut yesterday!
My grandma has since stabilized and will begin a slow recovery. The scare of her possibly dying really made me miss my family and I felt a sudden void in my life out here. Luckily, Erin is here - which was a comfort on Saturday - but eventually I had to leave town, (and cell reception) and I realized how far away I really am from the most important people in my life. I understand that what I am doing for myself right now is necessary, but sometimes I honestly miss those couple of years I moved back in with my parents, was in love and engaged, and was surrounded by aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, old friends - - I guess part of me just feels a little lonely tonight…
Oh Rachi, Im sorry about your grandmother, I hope she gets better
ReplyDeleteRachie -- I am sitting here overnight in Grammas room tonight and I just read her your blog. She says she misses you so much too and she loves you very much! I know what you mean about family and it is hard to be away sometimes, especially at times like this. But we can feel your love and know that you are with us.
ReplyDeleteBEAUTIFUL LETTUCE AND BEAUTIFUL DISPLAY!!
Glad to hear she's doing a lot better, and I hope the BBQ eased the loneliness a bit.
ReplyDeleteI must say, tho, you didn't seem the least bit lonely out there, but rather surrounded by cool, fun people (mostly haha) who love and appreciate you! I'm so happy for you. :)